the last part of a quadrilogy, a song called "reflections/refractions" about me complaining about how much life sucks.
this part is about my strange obsession with becoming attached to people and then making them hate me, and explores the theme of bisexuality as a fad. partially fictionalized; i never told my parents about my sexuality.
lyrics
I heard you were lookin for a friend to talk to;
want you to know that I am here for you.
Let’s just be friends, wouldn’t that be great?
It’s not like anyone likes you anyway
that's great, let's get acquainted
i'm always looking for another friend to lean on
let me cry on your shoulder, hold my hand
maybe you'll appear as character in one of my stories
now that we're friends, let's move on
do you want to have my babies some day?
am i moving too fast? that's okay,
it's not like i liked you anyway
what do you get? nothing, a big fat nothing. I have nothing.
I am nothing
I'm worthless; I'm stupid. I'm pathetic; I'm stupid.
But still, let's get acquainted
i'm always looking for another friend to steal from
let me borrow your things, take me places
maybe i'll suck your dick in return one day
but mom
being bisexual was the cool thing in school
I just wanted to be cool
don't you want me to cool
why won't you let me be cool
you hate me, mom, yeah don't you
all of the girls did it
none of the boys did it
all of the girls did it
none of the boys did it
yeah, all of the girls did it and
none of the boys did it
but that's okay mommy,
cause I just wanted to be different
The latest from sean thornton explores dark themes, but they’re handled with a delicate grace in these beautiful bedroom pop songs. Bandcamp New & Notable Apr 25, 2022