1. |
every now and then
04:40
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I'm feeling better
than I ever did before
I picked myself up off the floor
and shouted to the heavens,
"I could live forever!"
I
was keeping myself up late at night
hiding from demons. in my fright,
whispered "there's no way this can last forever."
but I
don't wanna talk about anything
much less my deepest anxieties
in the form of anything else but this song
and you
don't want to take your damn medicine
and you won't tell me what it is
that makes you so afraid of everything
and I wish
that I could make it up to you
that I could make it up for you
but I cannot find the words to say
but I
don't wanna talk about anything
much less my deepest anxieties
in the form of anything else but this song
and you
don't wanna talk about anything
much less your deepest anxieties
in the form of anything else but your rage
everyone needs a therapist
every now and then
everyone needs some medicine
every now and then
and we
haven't spoken in three years
but you're a tryhard to kill yourself
so I think it's a perfect time to break my swear
but this one’s not even for you
it’s not even about you
it’s about letting go of broken bones
and i
don’t give a fuck about anything
much less your deepest anxieties
so i’m going to sit right here and write this song
I’m sorry
no i’m not but i want to be
no i don’t but i’ve got to be
if i’m a man of god i’ll forgive my sister
but how?
when i just think of you lying there
i want to kneel down and say a prayer
that he’ll take you; better now than later
and you
don’t give a fuck about anything
except your deepest anxieties
and now i’m better off than you ever will be
everyone needs the hospital
every now and then
everyone needs some solitude
every now and then
and i
don’t want to talk about anything
much less my deepest anxieties
in the form of anything else but this song
everyone needs a therapist
every now and then
and you
don’t give a fuck about anything
much less my deepest anxieties ...
everyone needs some medicine
every now and then
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2. |
dragsville, baby
03:08
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the husks of eleven waning moons
fill my soul, not leaving love much room.
i only cut my nails to ravished her in the back of her car
or 'cause i've finally exhumed the corpse of my guitar.
five fingers sharp to destroy
five fingers dull to create
when i told you the truth,
you forgot, didn't you?
god be mine
i don't know how to pray
but i do know your name
i feel shame
i've been gone a long time
can i kiss you one time?
why don't you love me?
this is dragsville, where have you been?
you were eternally young
but you forgot the words i sung.
north dakota, born and raised,
what's even out there anyway?
why should i write you a song
if i don't even know your age?
i may not have a dick
but my heart tastes the same
i feel shame
it's your eyes that i love
it's your hair that i love
not your name
and your voice i love too
my perception is skewed
you're not him
he's been gone a long time
can i kiss you one time?
why don't you love me?
this is dragsville, where have you been?
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3. |
K.(N.O.)W.
06:45
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has anyone told you
there is a world inside of yours?
has anyone told you
there is no point in closing doors?
has anyone told you
a pile of leaves could be your home?
has anyone told you
i'll be wherever you roam?
at the camp where i found you
there was a purple fog
at the camp where i lost you
there was a perfect dog
when you angered the captain
we shouted "Fire!" to the skies
the drugs shattered our judgement
and we believed their beautiful lies
in the dark you are a boat
following lights to find your way home
and i don't even know your name
is it jell-o? or is it marmalade?
and now that i know you
i'm even sure of it myself
we've got the whole future
we'll put our pasts on the shelf
has anyone told you
you've got a soul to clear the skies?
has anyone told you
to never look me in the eyes?
i thought you were lilies
i could have sworn you were mine
have I ever told you
i fell in love with your mind?
i wanted to hold you
to protect your precious feet
but how could you ever
love little old two-chord me?
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4. |
vladimir (a hate song)
03:32
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i poured myself a glass of rum
in fear another day would come
full of sober mind and thoughts
and all my work would be for naught
i lay in bed and tried to sleep
and happy thoughts began to creep
into my head, out of my bones
i wish they would leave me alone
who am i supposed to be
without these drugs inside of me?
will i be a better man
and love me more than vodka can?
i cuddled up next to the beast
i scratched his back, he kissed my cheek
i fell asleep next to his warmth
and left my drink, full, on the floor
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5. |
teetering
05:26
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whenever i’m hungry i go straight
for the bottle to drown it out
cause when my stomach’s empty it takes
so much less to knock me down
to break out of this self destructive cycle
you’ve got to reduce your use and recycle
i guess you could say i’ve been teetering
back and forth on the edge of a knife
i’m afraid that i will be teetering
for the rest of my miserable life
get a real job, please go get married
to tell you the truth i’d rather be buried
in the ground
there’s more to life than this, or so i’ve been
told a thousand times before
but i can’t reach it from the spot where i
passed out naked on the floor
there’s more to life than this
they told me
you’ve gotta do something more
they scold me
i guess you could say i’ve been teetering
back and forth on the edge of a knife
i’m terrified that i will be teetering
for the rest of my god-given life
“you’re gonna regret this when it’s over”
to tell you the truth i’ve never been sober
in my life
i haven’t taken my medicine in three weeks
what the fuck is wrong with me?
they’re the only things that keep me from
hanging by my neck from a tree
the threat of an atom bomb couldn’t faze me
when i’m fighting a nuclear war almost daily
i guess you could say i’ve been teetering
back and forth on the edge of a knife
i guess that i just will be teetering
for the rest of my natural life
i guess you could say i’ve been teetering
back and forth on the edge of a knife
i’m afraid that i will be teetering
for the rest of my miserable life
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6. |
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7. |
sweater breath
02:43
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8. |
cabernet sauvignon
05:04
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there's something in the air that i can feel
there's something in the wind that makes it real
there's something in these prayers that God won't hear
it's something that the moon has known for years
i've lately found my mood's not up to par
but things don't always stay the way they are
and things aren't as they were some years ago
when i still wandered hospitals alone
somewhere out there there's a home
built for all of us to own
take me with you into town
buy us both a wedding gown
somewhere out there there's a hole
built for each of our souls
take me with you out to sea
and come and drift away with me
ahhhhhh
come take me by the hand my darling dear
i'll keep you ever safe and ever near
i'll cater to your every whim and plea
but only if you do the same for me
there's secrets deep inside all of our hearts
in places that we hide away from harm
in deep and dark recesses of our minds
i only ask that you don't look for mine
chorus
ahhh
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9. |
sometimes
04:19
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i didn't eat today
and i don't know why
i want to waste away
and i want to cry
but it's okay to be hungry
sometimes
i took another shot
or maybe it was four
this vodka's all i've got
i wanna hit the floor
but it's okay to get shit faced
sometimes
i had twenty bucks
i needed food and gas
but who gives a fuck
i bought another glass
i'd rather starve than be sober
sometimes
i couldn't sleep last night
and i sure know why
cause i'm full of fright
and can't calm my mind
but it's okay to feel restless
sometimes
and in my waking dreams
i watch my loved ones die
and i can't stop their screams
from inside my mind
but it's okay to feel like this
sometimes
and when i close my eyes
they are full of blood
smeared with guts and gore
it feels like a flood
but it's okay to think like this
...right?
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10. |
teetered.
04:02
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i took my medicine for the first time in
what feels like forever
i've been smiling at strangers more and more
my jokes are more clever
but when the last drop empties out
am i the same man i was before?
can i finally get up from the spot
where i've been writhing on the floor?
i haven't had a sip of vodka in
what feels like forever
but if i drink a box of wine instead
is that any better?
this life is a teeter-totter, yeah
you're the sea and i'm the saw
how long will i be on top of it
and how long until i fall off?
i'm afraid i'll be teetering up and down
for the rest of my life
how long until i come back down?
please god let me off of this ride
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